So the cops came to the apartment building AGAIN! To deal with some white trash bullshit... I swear I was living back in my old place where you would think that there would be this kind of crap all the time but I had less trouble there. Go figure.

This is like the third time this month that the cops have shown up.

There might be a risk of me having to look for a new place to live because the owners might get tired of all the bullshit and just give us all thirty days to get out.

yesh...

wow... it is eight days until my birthday...

crazy.

Soon I will be 21. On 8 18 08.

I am kind of excited. I am going to be legal enough to get a drink at a restaurant... finally.

But I think I am going to have a low key kind of party. I am going to invite a bunch of people over to my house on the Saturday after my birthday and we will probably drink and play video games and watch movies on my tiny TV. I am thinking of getting a bigger TV... because my little 14" is just too small for my place... I am not sure what I am going to do with it after I get my new one. I am sure my sister would like it. Since she can plug her games into it. I think that is a good idea... I am going to go plan and plot now... and eat lunch... mmm.... lunch.

So I have been thinking...

And in these thoughts I have been wondering about traveling.

And the place that I would like to travel to would be Japan.

I have been wanting to go there for a long time now and I would really love to be in another country again.

So since these thought processes have led me here I have been pondering.

I would like to go next summer. If that would be possible. The trick would be getting the money together. But I would like to have at LEAST one year of Japanese under my belt before doing so. Now I have a goal. To make my self take Japanese 101 for a whole school year and then that summer go to Japan and play around there for a few weeks. I am thinking about doing a school group travel abroad thing. I believe that the rates would be cheaper if I did it that way. I have to check on that but I am pretty sure that I could get some scholarships to help me out with some of the cost. Being that it is a college thing.

But it needs researching and planning so... we shall have to see about that.

Oh by the way we got the cat safely back to his owners. We are good people ^__^.

In an awkward voice:

there is much about this life that I do not understand or will not EVER understand. I have grown to accept that. I know that there are mysteries that my life time will never reveal to me. I don't want to know. I DON'T... WANT... TO... KNOW....

There are mysteries that I don't want to be apart of. I don't want to know what sleeps in the eternal darkness. I don't want to see the demons of the night crawling from the shadows upon the walls. I don't want to HEAR those FUCKING VOICES in my head. Scritching and scratching upon my brain with they're chattering. But... I feel it... I hear it... I fucking smell it....

there is something that sleeps inside of me. I can feel it growing inside my chest. Infecting my body with it's poison as it spreads through me. There is someone there. I know it is not me. It trys to push me out of my head so that it can sit there in MY brain and control MY body. I try so hard to lock it away. But I am getting weaker each time I try to stop it. One of these days.... it is going to win.

And that day is coming.

a possible comic idea?

We shall see...