Apart from enjoying the gorgeous scenery I was doing a lot of thinking and processing about myself and where I wanted to go with my life. I realized that I have put a lot of financial strain on my husband without realizing it. Then I realized that I HATE working at home! I am not really happy with our home as it is. I don't like having my work space and our bedroom in the same space. It feels restricting and suffocating in there. Also the fact that the bedroom lacks the natural light that I need to work. I realized that I work best with some natural light shinning in a room. Two rooms that fit this description are the living room and the kitchen. Although, sometimes I don't like working in these spaces because it doesn't have the same privacy that I like when I am alone in a room with a door. I feel like even if I solve this problem I will still have trouble working.
During my stay at Trout Lake I got some work done! I was able to sketch like mad and I came up with some great designs! and I started to do the line art on the computer and everything. I was excited to work and draw again.
But I wasn't home.
Again, after much internalizing I came to the conclusion that I have to get a job. I would really love to be drawing for a living but if I can't do it when I am home then I won't be able to do it. However, I think that if I get a job I will be able to come home and do my art and want to do anything else that I want/ need to do. So here are my goals for April:
Get a part-time job
Produce at least 10 different designs for April (If successful then bump up to 15)
Cook meals for my family
Work out at least an hour everyday
Tell my husband everyday that I love him
The last one is more important. Here's to changing my life for the better.
"From the end spring new beginnings."
-Pliny the Elder
