Wow...
I have had one hell of a roller coaster ride let me tell ya.
I can't really say that LA hasn't been anything but an adventure. Although it is far from over. I still have to meet with my roommate and see the apartment. Honestly... I am worried about this whole thing. Since I don't have a lot of money I am trying to pay for rent which is going to be really expensive. I am also sharing a room which will make the difference on what I should be spending my money on. I have to keep in mind that it is almost 800 dollars a month. and it is due the first of the month. So I need to find work as soon as possible. I might have to commute. But we shall see. I can still say no. But a part from sharing a room... it sounds like I could get along with her.
oh fuck! I also don't know when I can move in... shit... I didn't think about that. I am gonna have to ask her mom or my roommate when I get the chance. Hopefully it can be as soon as tomorrow.
I fucking hope so.
This has been quite the adventure.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
So. It's December.
Only three n' a half weeks until I leave. Which is awesome. Since I am getting sick of this crap that I have to deal with at home. In fact I wrote about it last night on my other journal...
"In the words of Spider Jerusalem
I HATE IT HERE!
I am sick of the festering passive aggressive bullshit. I am just done. I hate being manipulated by it, and guilt tripped by it! I am sick of it. FUCK!
Here’s the story:
I was making food for my sister and I; steak and shrimp. It was obviously missing something... So I thought "Hey! How about some rice?!" There was still rice in the rice cooker when I wandered to it. I didn't know how long my stepmother left it there... so I threw it out, since I was going to make new rice. Mind you this was 10 a clock at night so she probably made it when she got home and left it there... with the lid on it. But then I remembered that we had potatoes that we needed to use. So we had potatoes with our steaks. Not the best steaks that I’ve made but they were pretty decent.
Next fucking day... I'm trying to leave to go to work and my step mother wants to talk to me... I told her that I was in a hurry and I had to go. So I left for work. After work I call my sister and ask her if she has talked to my step mom at all… like about what she wanted to speak to me about. What my sister told me I would remember for a long time.
She said that my step mom came up to her and asked her if she threw out the rice. My sister of course said no but it didn't really do anything because my step mother started CRYING! Yep. FUCKING CRYING! I couldn't believe what I had heard. This was the STUPIDEST thing for someone to cry over. I mean if it was a fucking three course meal that she slaved hours over and someone threw it out I could see someone crying over that. But it was just OLD RICE.
Now don't get me wrong. I know that she doesn't like to waste food and I don't either... but if she fucking stored it properly in the first place it wouldn't be FUCKING WASTED! So I get home grab some of my sister's dinner that she made for us and... low and behold the fucking confrontation.
So I am about to leave the kitchen when she wants to talk to me. I knew this was coming. I knew that sooner or later I had to fucking do this. She asked me about the rice and I told her the truth. I said that I didn't know how long the rice sat there and I was going to make new rice then decided to have potatoes instead. She got all upset with me. I told her over and over that I didn't know how long the rice sat there and I was trying to be food safe and she told me all this bullshit about taking that rice that she made the night before to work with her... THAT RICE WOULD SIT OVER NIGHT AND PLUS THE AMOUNT OF HOURS UNTIL SHE TOOK IT TO WORK WITH HER. Now there was a possibility of not getting a food borne illness. But it sat there covered and cooled off slowly. I had no idea.
She said that she made the rice last night and she didn't know why I threw it away. I TRIED to explain it to her in simple words and in a nice tone as possible why I did it. OH MAN! I was shaking so much from the anger of it all. I was really trying to keep it together. She also fished an onion out of the trash. Mind you I was tried and hungry and I guess too lazy to put that onion in the fridge... yes I know, hate me… I lied about the onion because at that point I just didn’t want to fucking deal. but it was the fact that she fished it out of the trash and actually USED IT FOR DINNER THAT NIGHT!
My dad recently just got over the "Flu" which I knew was food poisoning but this incident just confirmed it. She doesn't practice basic food safety. I really do understand where she is coming from on the wasting food thing but... eating healthy to me is more important. Which brings me to another thing. She will leave things to ROT in the fridge. I will come down hoping for a nice apple sometimes. Instead I get green and grey fur attaching itself to the rest of the "once delicious" produce. You think that's nasty? I've got tons of those stories. Like defrosting chicken or fish in the sink and the cats jumping up and licking it and pawing at it. She also lets tomatoes ROT on the counters. yeah. nasty.
Anyway. So next time what she wants me to do is put the nasty rice that I find into the fridge for them to eat later if I so choose to use the rice cooker or clean it. Fine. Whatever. Apparently this was a personal blow to her and she was super offended. Now she is playing the passive aggressive game with me. Well I can tell you I am sick of playing it with my dad and I am sick of playing it with my dad's mom so I am pretty much at the end of my rope here. No more bullshit.
You know what she did that's kind of funny. She talked loudly about us in chinese to her friend on the internet about us. Which is hilarious since we can't understand what she is saying. So... I am not taking it personally. Neither is my sister.
It was just irritating talking to a brick wall. I mean I kept telling her my reasons and the facts and why I threw the FUCKING RICE AWAY! But she would not hear it. I have a food handler’s card so… I know what I am fucking talking about since I practice safe food handling (Apparently she does too. Which is a frightening thought when you think about it) So after this little incident I am NEVER eating another thing she makes. EVER.
FUCK. "
Yeah. I am sick of this crap. I am soooo glad I am leaving.
So I think I am being moved back to my other store on Monday. Which makes me happy and means that I will be able to say goodbye to all the customers that are there and want to see me before I am done working there. I have to say that this past few weeks at the other store really made me think about what I had and took for granted. Like having plumbing... because that is awesome. The bad thing is that I am going to have to deal with the bug-eyed girl when I come back. Meh. Whatever. It will be my last two weeks. If it all goes as planned...
There are other things but I have to go to work.
Jaa Mata!
Only three n' a half weeks until I leave. Which is awesome. Since I am getting sick of this crap that I have to deal with at home. In fact I wrote about it last night on my other journal...
"In the words of Spider Jerusalem
I HATE IT HERE!
I am sick of the festering passive aggressive bullshit. I am just done. I hate being manipulated by it, and guilt tripped by it! I am sick of it. FUCK!
Here’s the story:
I was making food for my sister and I; steak and shrimp. It was obviously missing something... So I thought "Hey! How about some rice?!" There was still rice in the rice cooker when I wandered to it. I didn't know how long my stepmother left it there... so I threw it out, since I was going to make new rice. Mind you this was 10 a clock at night so she probably made it when she got home and left it there... with the lid on it. But then I remembered that we had potatoes that we needed to use. So we had potatoes with our steaks. Not the best steaks that I’ve made but they were pretty decent.
Next fucking day... I'm trying to leave to go to work and my step mother wants to talk to me... I told her that I was in a hurry and I had to go. So I left for work. After work I call my sister and ask her if she has talked to my step mom at all… like about what she wanted to speak to me about. What my sister told me I would remember for a long time.
She said that my step mom came up to her and asked her if she threw out the rice. My sister of course said no but it didn't really do anything because my step mother started CRYING! Yep. FUCKING CRYING! I couldn't believe what I had heard. This was the STUPIDEST thing for someone to cry over. I mean if it was a fucking three course meal that she slaved hours over and someone threw it out I could see someone crying over that. But it was just OLD RICE.
Now don't get me wrong. I know that she doesn't like to waste food and I don't either... but if she fucking stored it properly in the first place it wouldn't be FUCKING WASTED! So I get home grab some of my sister's dinner that she made for us and... low and behold the fucking confrontation.
So I am about to leave the kitchen when she wants to talk to me. I knew this was coming. I knew that sooner or later I had to fucking do this. She asked me about the rice and I told her the truth. I said that I didn't know how long the rice sat there and I was going to make new rice then decided to have potatoes instead. She got all upset with me. I told her over and over that I didn't know how long the rice sat there and I was trying to be food safe and she told me all this bullshit about taking that rice that she made the night before to work with her... THAT RICE WOULD SIT OVER NIGHT AND PLUS THE AMOUNT OF HOURS UNTIL SHE TOOK IT TO WORK WITH HER. Now there was a possibility of not getting a food borne illness. But it sat there covered and cooled off slowly. I had no idea.
She said that she made the rice last night and she didn't know why I threw it away. I TRIED to explain it to her in simple words and in a nice tone as possible why I did it. OH MAN! I was shaking so much from the anger of it all. I was really trying to keep it together. She also fished an onion out of the trash. Mind you I was tried and hungry and I guess too lazy to put that onion in the fridge... yes I know, hate me… I lied about the onion because at that point I just didn’t want to fucking deal. but it was the fact that she fished it out of the trash and actually USED IT FOR DINNER THAT NIGHT!
My dad recently just got over the "Flu" which I knew was food poisoning but this incident just confirmed it. She doesn't practice basic food safety. I really do understand where she is coming from on the wasting food thing but... eating healthy to me is more important. Which brings me to another thing. She will leave things to ROT in the fridge. I will come down hoping for a nice apple sometimes. Instead I get green and grey fur attaching itself to the rest of the "once delicious" produce. You think that's nasty? I've got tons of those stories. Like defrosting chicken or fish in the sink and the cats jumping up and licking it and pawing at it. She also lets tomatoes ROT on the counters. yeah. nasty.
Anyway. So next time what she wants me to do is put the nasty rice that I find into the fridge for them to eat later if I so choose to use the rice cooker or clean it. Fine. Whatever. Apparently this was a personal blow to her and she was super offended. Now she is playing the passive aggressive game with me. Well I can tell you I am sick of playing it with my dad and I am sick of playing it with my dad's mom so I am pretty much at the end of my rope here. No more bullshit.
You know what she did that's kind of funny. She talked loudly about us in chinese to her friend on the internet about us. Which is hilarious since we can't understand what she is saying. So... I am not taking it personally. Neither is my sister.
It was just irritating talking to a brick wall. I mean I kept telling her my reasons and the facts and why I threw the FUCKING RICE AWAY! But she would not hear it. I have a food handler’s card so… I know what I am fucking talking about since I practice safe food handling (Apparently she does too. Which is a frightening thought when you think about it) So after this little incident I am NEVER eating another thing she makes. EVER.
FUCK. "
Yeah. I am sick of this crap. I am soooo glad I am leaving.
So I think I am being moved back to my other store on Monday. Which makes me happy and means that I will be able to say goodbye to all the customers that are there and want to see me before I am done working there. I have to say that this past few weeks at the other store really made me think about what I had and took for granted. Like having plumbing... because that is awesome. The bad thing is that I am going to have to deal with the bug-eyed girl when I come back. Meh. Whatever. It will be my last two weeks. If it all goes as planned...
There are other things but I have to go to work.
Jaa Mata!
Thursday, November 22, 2007
It is that holiday that we have to be thankful for.
Happy turkey day everybody.
I actually don't like this holiday because of it's history and the ignorance behind it but I do enjoy the principle of getting together with your families and feasting and being happy (At least with my family). I guess this holiday has some good morel values to it. But I guess it is a good thing to think about what we are thankful for and to remember our roots and not being selfish. Well... that is what I think about this holiday. On the plus side I get to have a four day weekend.
In other news... I've been working at the other store for the past two days. Because the bitch decided to quit and inconvenience everybody and I am apparently the only one that my boss can depend on to work there and I am the only afternoon person. But I am worried that I will have to work there for the rest of November until I my last day in December. Why? Because I fucking HATE it there! There is no plumbing and the customers are... snippy... and rude. I do like getting off early but I just don't like it there. I really don't want to be the fill in person there. But my boss seems to be looking for someone to fill in over there. He really shouldn't have any trouble because it is the holiday season and people are sure to be looking for work. I just know it.
And off the subject of work. I has a new compy. And not just any compy... the Mac book Pro that I need for school! YAY! It isn't fully spec.'ed (I am not sure what the proper abbreviation is for that) to what they want for animation... but... if I add more ram it should run okay with whatever program they give me. It has been kind of interesting to figure out how to run a Mac. But I am glad that I have a little time to play with it before I go to school. Plus my uncle has a Mac so he should be able to help me with any problems I might have or whatever.
Well... I think I am going to do something that relates to this holiday in some way.
Have a happy Turkey Day!
I actually don't like this holiday because of it's history and the ignorance behind it but I do enjoy the principle of getting together with your families and feasting and being happy (At least with my family). I guess this holiday has some good morel values to it. But I guess it is a good thing to think about what we are thankful for and to remember our roots and not being selfish. Well... that is what I think about this holiday. On the plus side I get to have a four day weekend.
In other news... I've been working at the other store for the past two days. Because the bitch decided to quit and inconvenience everybody and I am apparently the only one that my boss can depend on to work there and I am the only afternoon person. But I am worried that I will have to work there for the rest of November until I my last day in December. Why? Because I fucking HATE it there! There is no plumbing and the customers are... snippy... and rude. I do like getting off early but I just don't like it there. I really don't want to be the fill in person there. But my boss seems to be looking for someone to fill in over there. He really shouldn't have any trouble because it is the holiday season and people are sure to be looking for work. I just know it.
And off the subject of work. I has a new compy. And not just any compy... the Mac book Pro that I need for school! YAY! It isn't fully spec.'ed (I am not sure what the proper abbreviation is for that) to what they want for animation... but... if I add more ram it should run okay with whatever program they give me. It has been kind of interesting to figure out how to run a Mac. But I am glad that I have a little time to play with it before I go to school. Plus my uncle has a Mac so he should be able to help me with any problems I might have or whatever.
Well... I think I am going to do something that relates to this holiday in some way.
Have a happy Turkey Day!
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Okay... so I ordered me some Lupin the Third dvds like a fucking month ago. God damn it. So I sent them a message to tell them to make my order a top priority and to go ahead and charge me for the fucking next day shipping just so it can fucking get here. Mother fucker. I kinda hope that they WON'T charge me extra... but whatever. At this point I don't fucking care.
Anyway... nothing really new is going on except for getting my life in order so that I can go down to California in a few months. The time is encroaching on me fast. I just got word that my college has received my tuition deposit. Which was such a fucking relief because I was worried that it got lost in the mail or some jerk off found it and was trying to figure out how to cash it. I am glad that it arrived safely.
I got my permit renewed so I can get my license in December. And that is becoming a chore because my dad needs to get his fucking new car insured. Which is taking him forever. I know he just got it but seriously... that should have been top priority. But this car is now my dad's baby... he loves it. So the chances of him getting it insured right away are slim. Luckily I am not depending on him so much. I have an aunt who can also teach me. This driving thing is becoming a pain in the ass.
I am tired.
I think I will draw for a while.
Goodnight.
Anyway... nothing really new is going on except for getting my life in order so that I can go down to California in a few months. The time is encroaching on me fast. I just got word that my college has received my tuition deposit. Which was such a fucking relief because I was worried that it got lost in the mail or some jerk off found it and was trying to figure out how to cash it. I am glad that it arrived safely.
I got my permit renewed so I can get my license in December. And that is becoming a chore because my dad needs to get his fucking new car insured. Which is taking him forever. I know he just got it but seriously... that should have been top priority. But this car is now my dad's baby... he loves it. So the chances of him getting it insured right away are slim. Luckily I am not depending on him so much. I have an aunt who can also teach me. This driving thing is becoming a pain in the ass.
I am tired.
I think I will draw for a while.
Goodnight.
Friday, September 14, 2007
Okay... So I know I promised to put pictures up here a LONNNNGGGG time ago but I've been busy with me working and trying to get into school and all... so here is the first of some things I drew hopefully it won't be the last.
Here is Dr. Orpheus from the Venture Brothers. I really love that show. If you haven't seen it. Do. Because it's fucking hilarious!
Dr. Orpheus is one of my favorite characters I am also drawing another character from the show. Hopefully I'll put it up here.
Okay. These guys are from the Jak and Daxter Video game series. It is one of my favorite game series and I love replaying them. I drew this a while ago and I've been meaning to put it up. I know that Daxter sucks. That is not what he really looks like. I drew him kind of quickly. I have to admit that I really wanted to finish the picture so he was kind of half-assed.
And this one... is me.
Yep.
Invader M.
That is as close to a self portrait as I am going to get.
Well that is all for the update. Hopefully I'll post more. But I might get really busy soon so... we shall see.
Here is Dr. Orpheus from the Venture Brothers. I really love that show. If you haven't seen it. Do. Because it's fucking hilarious!
Dr. Orpheus is one of my favorite characters I am also drawing another character from the show. Hopefully I'll put it up here.
Okay. These guys are from the Jak and Daxter Video game series. It is one of my favorite game series and I love replaying them. I drew this a while ago and I've been meaning to put it up. I know that Daxter sucks. That is not what he really looks like. I drew him kind of quickly. I have to admit that I really wanted to finish the picture so he was kind of half-assed.
And this one... is me.
Yep.
Invader M.
That is as close to a self portrait as I am going to get.
Well that is all for the update. Hopefully I'll post more. But I might get really busy soon so... we shall see.
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Wow...
I was in a weird funky mood last night.
so an update on sort of recent events...
Well... I got accepted in to Laguna College of Art and Design last month. I would have written about that sooner but I didn't want my friends to find out until I announced it at my birthday party. Which was really fun. It's weird not being a teenager anymore... I don't feel any different but at the same time I am not who I was.
Well anyway.
After my birthday my friends and I went up to 07 Penny Arcade Expo which was really really fun. We all had a great time. Except for being threatened to be thrown out by the hotel staff if we were really loud because we were under 21 and for certain people who got on everybody's nerves on the trip. But other than that I think we've gained the experience of a trip that I would with out question do again. and next year... I'll be 21 so it will be better. Because I will be an "adult" by many people's standards and won't be given shit about that again. But we all had fun. Which was good. We got to play all sorts of game demos and meet people and see Freezepop and the Mini Bosses on stage. Both were awesome concerts. I still need to get those photos developed. As soon as I do... they might grace this blog...? we shall see. We shall see...
Now I am moving back into my dad's house because I need to start saving money for school. It's kind of lame... because I liked living sort of on my own... Now I am sharing a room with my sister for five months. This is going to be interesting...
Anyway... I am going to be getting the rest of my crap out of that house and give them my key and hug people and say goodbye but it's not going to be "Goodbye" until January which then it will be very sad and I will cry.
It's funny... I never thought that I would be living in THIS house again... with my father... and my stepmother... my sister... and my stepbrother... It's just weird. But it is only for five months so hopefully it will be okay. Meaning not too much family drama. Well see how it goes.
I was in a weird funky mood last night.
so an update on sort of recent events...
Well... I got accepted in to Laguna College of Art and Design last month. I would have written about that sooner but I didn't want my friends to find out until I announced it at my birthday party. Which was really fun. It's weird not being a teenager anymore... I don't feel any different but at the same time I am not who I was.
Well anyway.
After my birthday my friends and I went up to 07 Penny Arcade Expo which was really really fun. We all had a great time. Except for being threatened to be thrown out by the hotel staff if we were really loud because we were under 21 and for certain people who got on everybody's nerves on the trip. But other than that I think we've gained the experience of a trip that I would with out question do again. and next year... I'll be 21 so it will be better. Because I will be an "adult" by many people's standards and won't be given shit about that again. But we all had fun. Which was good. We got to play all sorts of game demos and meet people and see Freezepop and the Mini Bosses on stage. Both were awesome concerts. I still need to get those photos developed. As soon as I do... they might grace this blog...? we shall see. We shall see...
Now I am moving back into my dad's house because I need to start saving money for school. It's kind of lame... because I liked living sort of on my own... Now I am sharing a room with my sister for five months. This is going to be interesting...
Anyway... I am going to be getting the rest of my crap out of that house and give them my key and hug people and say goodbye but it's not going to be "Goodbye" until January which then it will be very sad and I will cry.
It's funny... I never thought that I would be living in THIS house again... with my father... and my stepmother... my sister... and my stepbrother... It's just weird. But it is only for five months so hopefully it will be okay. Meaning not too much family drama. Well see how it goes.
It's been a while since I've written.
I am tired.
But I am playing Guitar Hero.
I don't know why. It is just some weird thing I guess.
I am feeling lonely.
But I am not alone... I am not alone because I am surrounded by friends and family... I feel alone as in the intimate sense. I miss having some one hold me. I miss having someone to cling to. To love and to make love to. I really miss that.
I am sure that there are other fish in the sea... and I am going to be living next to an ocean in January. So I am sure I will meet someone down there.
I am tired.
But I am playing Guitar Hero.
I don't know why. It is just some weird thing I guess.
I am feeling lonely.
But I am not alone... I am not alone because I am surrounded by friends and family... I feel alone as in the intimate sense. I miss having some one hold me. I miss having someone to cling to. To love and to make love to. I really miss that.
I am sure that there are other fish in the sea... and I am going to be living next to an ocean in January. So I am sure I will meet someone down there.
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