Oh yeah!
We also have a website about our wedding plans!
http://jensenlife.weebly.com/
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Saturday, September 26, 2009
One of life's little regrets...
I have been thinking a lot about my grandfather that passed away a few years ago. I have been taking more of an interest in music and... every time I hear certain songs I have been thinking about what kind of conversations we would have about the music... and what kind of tales he would tell me.
It is really depressing to me that I have been thinking about this so late after he passed away. I can't help but think about how I didn't really have a chance to say goodbye or how I didn't really have a chance to really talk to him. About how much I love and appreciate music and about how I love to make music with my voice or with instruments that create the sensual poetry of sounds.
I can't help but think that he was taken away from us too early... I know that he WOULD have lived on. If it wasn't for that fucking brain tumor I KNOW that he would have lived a longer life.
I miss him a lot.
I have come to realize that more as the days pass.
I know that I can't changed the fact that he died. I realize that he is passed on from this world and I can't change that. But I wish that I had the opportunity to talk to him. I didn't appreciate music back then as I do now and I wish that I had that chance to tell him.
Oh well...
I guess that life is full of these regrets. I just hope that my life isn't full of them.
I love you grandpa and I miss you terribly. I'm sorry that I didn't get the chance to tell you. I hope that you are happy wherever you are. I love you!
It is really depressing to me that I have been thinking about this so late after he passed away. I can't help but think about how I didn't really have a chance to say goodbye or how I didn't really have a chance to really talk to him. About how much I love and appreciate music and about how I love to make music with my voice or with instruments that create the sensual poetry of sounds.
I can't help but think that he was taken away from us too early... I know that he WOULD have lived on. If it wasn't for that fucking brain tumor I KNOW that he would have lived a longer life.
I miss him a lot.
I have come to realize that more as the days pass.
I know that I can't changed the fact that he died. I realize that he is passed on from this world and I can't change that. But I wish that I had the opportunity to talk to him. I didn't appreciate music back then as I do now and I wish that I had that chance to tell him.
Oh well...
I guess that life is full of these regrets. I just hope that my life isn't full of them.
I love you grandpa and I miss you terribly. I'm sorry that I didn't get the chance to tell you. I hope that you are happy wherever you are. I love you!
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
So the day I was born came and went.
Unfortunately I didn't have too great of a morning because I had to work one of the most hellious promotions. But after work I had a good day. My boyfriend took me out to a late lunch and then we went to the mall and he bought me a ring that has my birthstone in it :D. Then we went to my mom's and she gave me the most beautiful bouquet of flowers along with some lotions and a heart necklace made out of white gold and rose gold and diamonds. It's not really over since I still have my father and grandmother to take me out. But I still had a good birthday.
Also I want to thank everyone who called/ e-mailed/ Wrote on my wall on Facebook and wished me a happy birthday! Thanks for remembering me! ^__^ It really made my day!
Unfortunately I didn't have too great of a morning because I had to work one of the most hellious promotions. But after work I had a good day. My boyfriend took me out to a late lunch and then we went to the mall and he bought me a ring that has my birthstone in it :D. Then we went to my mom's and she gave me the most beautiful bouquet of flowers along with some lotions and a heart necklace made out of white gold and rose gold and diamonds. It's not really over since I still have my father and grandmother to take me out. But I still had a good birthday.
Also I want to thank everyone who called/ e-mailed/ Wrote on my wall on Facebook and wished me a happy birthday! Thanks for remembering me! ^__^ It really made my day!
Monday, June 29, 2009
late night ramblings
I am tired and it is late... BUT! I have a sweet new kebord and some awesome speakers that I just CAN'T WAIT to set up at home!
Not much of anything else is going on besides that I am in love with the most wonderful man I have ever met who loves me back. I love him so much <3>
Also we are planning on going to PAX we have the hotel booked we are going to pre-reg soon. I am excited! it looks like this year is going to be a good year!
so anyway I am probably going to play Age of Mythology with my boy and then fall asleep.
good night and sleep thee well.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
2009: The Year of Death
This has been an incredibly "grim" January.
Literally Grim.
Just after the new year began two people that I know and work with have had they're fathers pass on within days of each other. Both are having the struggles of dealing with they're passing. My co-worker is still in fact in his home; out of state with his family where they were taken by surprise at the sudden loss of a parent and husband.
And today at 2:10pm my own grandfather died. In his bed in a nursing home he slowly withered away until he passed on to the other side in his sleep. I didn't really have a very close relationship with my grandfather. He was not an easy man to get along with... let alone be around for long periods of time. He was a tired and bitter old man for reasons that I don't know.
In my early childhood I was scared of him. I was frightened of how he looked and his attitude towards me and my sister. I didn't know what to think or what to say to him. He was aggressive and kind of impatient which was also terrifying. But he doted on my sister and I during our birthday's and the holidays. As the years passed we saw less and less of him. He only came to some of the family functions dragging alone his girlfriend where we got to watch him mentally and emotionally abuse her.
Then finally the day came when we heard that he was diagnosed with liver cancer. And soon after he was put into the hospice center. These past few months were the worst. Not just for him but for my aunt who gave up a lot of her free time to be with him. He held on for a long time. So long in fact that his body was rotting from the inside out. Not to sound insensitive or anything but I am glad that he finally let go. He was barely alive as it was. His skin was falling off. Truly a nasty sight... I was not one of the ones to see my grandfather in those last painful moments.
Death comes to us all. And life is full of meetings and partings.
I hope that he will be happier where ever he is.
Goodnight grandfather. Rest well.
Literally Grim.
Just after the new year began two people that I know and work with have had they're fathers pass on within days of each other. Both are having the struggles of dealing with they're passing. My co-worker is still in fact in his home; out of state with his family where they were taken by surprise at the sudden loss of a parent and husband.
And today at 2:10pm my own grandfather died. In his bed in a nursing home he slowly withered away until he passed on to the other side in his sleep. I didn't really have a very close relationship with my grandfather. He was not an easy man to get along with... let alone be around for long periods of time. He was a tired and bitter old man for reasons that I don't know.
In my early childhood I was scared of him. I was frightened of how he looked and his attitude towards me and my sister. I didn't know what to think or what to say to him. He was aggressive and kind of impatient which was also terrifying. But he doted on my sister and I during our birthday's and the holidays. As the years passed we saw less and less of him. He only came to some of the family functions dragging alone his girlfriend where we got to watch him mentally and emotionally abuse her.
Then finally the day came when we heard that he was diagnosed with liver cancer. And soon after he was put into the hospice center. These past few months were the worst. Not just for him but for my aunt who gave up a lot of her free time to be with him. He held on for a long time. So long in fact that his body was rotting from the inside out. Not to sound insensitive or anything but I am glad that he finally let go. He was barely alive as it was. His skin was falling off. Truly a nasty sight... I was not one of the ones to see my grandfather in those last painful moments.
Death comes to us all. And life is full of meetings and partings.
I hope that he will be happier where ever he is.
Goodnight grandfather. Rest well.
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