So after MORE thinking since that is what I do... I mull over my thoughts like...

heh...

I'm not sure.

But I give them much thought. In my mulling.

Anyway.

I know what I am doing... finally.

I am coming back home to Portland.

In either a month or five months from now. It all depends on if I find a job within the next two weeks or not.

Yes.

I am actually getting excited about going back home. I feel like I needed to sort of get away for a while. and I did just that... I went away and now I want to come back. The best part about all this is that when I come back I can stay at my mom's house until I get back on my feet. Which means that I am not going to have to share a room with my sister again. That was okay except for the fact that it was really cramped. And siblings sharing a space and being civil with each other can't last long.

I am really happy about this. I am coming home and I am going to be either going back to school at PCC or PSU or saving up for the study abroad program. I am also going to be working on getting a car. Because I am so sick of this public transportation thing. I want to go where I want when I want and not have to rely on others.

I might also be able to get my old job back. I will have to see though. The minimum wage down here is more than it is in Oregon. Which kind of sucks. But at least it is moving up... I guess.

My thoughts are all jumbled since I am so excited. I don't know how to be unexcited.

Also... I really want to go to PAX this year again! and maybe I'll bring my sister. But this time I will be 21 which means I can go to hotel room parties.

If I stay down here for the five months I am going to try and get my license here (because I know where it is super easy to take the test) that way I can just get my license updated to an Oregon one and then I can get a car. It is genius! Because then I would beat the system!

That is IF I stay here. I kind of don't want to. I do want to come home. But I can't really do that right now. So I guess I am stuck here. I haven't talked to my parents about this. But I am supposed to be job hunting right now. I really should go and do that. I guess I am going to be stuck here for a while. Oh well.