Happy Fucking Easter.

I have been having weird dreams that I don't remember.
But in the back of my mind they are there.
As I think and try so hard to recall what it was that I dreamt.
I sometimes wonder if it will open the door to what I have been searching for.
The key to the human mind.
The inner psyche.
Open the door.
But what is the key?
what is the key?
the key.

And that was me being poetic this morning.

It's Easter Sunday and I don't care. But if I get free chocolates then it is good enough for me I guess. I don't believe in god. And so I don't believe that his son died for "my sins" because comparatively he would have to do a hell of a lot more then just dying these days because of all the "sin" today. I don't think that just being tortured and dying and getting up three days later is enough. Sorry. I just don't. I guess he was ridiculed too on his way to die but that is only being humiliated. I don't think that would cover for every body's "sins". There is just too much and they must have had some high expectations of Jesus in order to believe that his death could cover all the sins of every human being. I can't believe the stupidity of some people.

People have taken the "bible" WAAAAYYYY too seriously for too long. Really all the book is is stories that people have made up to better themselves as humans. But people have been blindly trying to follow all that the bible says and that is just impossible. If you think about it the bible is divided into books and chapters. So really what people are reading is like a big book of "Grimm's Fairy Tales" But they take it so literally that people refuse to think for them selves. I bet the original writer of the bible wouldn't say that it was a holy book that was bestowed on him from a higher power (well I think that he would say that later... ). I bet it was because he saw all the corruption and hate and lies that he wanted to write something that was meaningful to people. Something that would inspire them to want to go out an be good human beings. To live peacefully. But it also seems to me that the book was not just written by this one person. I think over the years it was added to and made larger by different writers who had their own theories on the world and how it was created. I mean what is better to listen to?
A god who created the earth?
Or the evolution of man?

Creation stories about gods creating the earth have been around since civilizations began. So why not? I mean the evolution theory probably sounded more like fiction then a god creating the earth.
Science has mostly proved otherwise. But that was only because they questioned the theory of creation.

I find it slightly interesting that this book in particular people follow so closely. There ARE other books with morels to them too. But just because there isn't the word "god" in them they are they are just stories. I am glad that people are taking the stories to heart but I think that a lot of people are just too extreme.

No, I don't like you preaching to me about god. I don't like you when you come into my workplace or knocking on my door at home and give me a letter about Jesus Christ writing to me about him dying for my sins when I know damn well that either you or your pastor who wrote this on the computer and xeroxed a bunch of copies to hand out to people.

I don't like it when you push your beliefs on me.

So back the fuck off.

I don't believe in god or his son. I don't believe that he really existed since no one has really proved that anyway. I think that if there was a Jesus... and he did die. I think that before his followers came to check on him someone stole his body and buried him somewhere. Because he didn't appear in front of his followers again when they came for him. They just assumed that he resurrected. That what is called a writer's creative licence. I don't think that Jesus was a real person. I think that this whole thing was just a story. Which brings me back to my previous argument that the bible is nothing more then a bunch of stories written by some clever writers and people have taken it way to literally.

Like the whole Mary getting pregnant with out sex thing... It is impossible to have a baby with out getting inseminated with sperm. Seriously. I mean come on. They just lied about having sex... I mean DID a doctor even CHECK if she was a virgin? no. In the story it pretty much is about when Mary is in her last month and is about to have the baby and they had no place to go. I think that they did fuck. But again... creative license. Who would want to believe that the son of god came out of someone who WASN'T a virgin. That wouldn't sound as good. Also they were looking for a place to stay because they were running away since they had sex when they weren't supposed to. Oops.

I didn't mean to run off on a tangent there but I don't like people pushing they're religion on me. Since I don't believe in such things. I have been through a lot with religion and I don't want to fight with people about it. I just think it's stupid and that people should leave me alone about it. It's fine. Go believe in your stories. If they make you a better person then sure go right ahead but just get away from me. I don't want to hear about how I should go to church because I am sinner. It is truly impossible to live by all those high expectations in the bible. Not all of them were meant to be taken as laws to live by heart. Only some of them. Take what you want to live by as you, a person not as the whole goddamn book. And that is what a lot people never seemed to understand.

Also the bible is not a law book. It is not the law. We don't uphold it and we don't use it as judgment guide in our courts. So if two gay people want to get married that is their choice. It was bullshit that the bible was brought into it. And marriage has never been "sacred". A lot of things happen behind closed doors that I wouldn't call "scared" in fact I would call it hell or murder or abused or angry. Really it is just a legal way to become a apart of someone else's life for as long as they live... or when they get sick of each other. Not all people are unhappily married so I am glad for them. I think that people got so hyped up this gay marriage thing that their bibles had to be waved into the air and said that was a volition of the good book. When really that shouldn't have had any effect on what the pollations verdict was. But... as any god fearing citizen would have done they let the bible into the argument. Which it shouldn't have been there in the first place. There is a line... and that is called church and state and the motherfuckers keep wanting to cross back and forth over that line.

Geez. I was ranting again.

I don't like the thought of some Omnipotent being watching me and what ever I do. but you know what I say to that *gives the bird to the sky*. Well then god getting quite a show. Although I think it is also impossible that he is watching all the billions of people in the world. Since that doesn't make sense but if he wants to watch me then go right a fucking head mother fucker. I don't care.
Yes I have "sinned" and I will continue to "sin" until the day I die. Where is the fun in being good all the time anyway?

So all you fuckers who want to preach to me can back the fuck off because I don't want to hear it. If this crazy fucked up religion works for you then great. But I am happier just knowing that I am different and that I am not like you blindly following the Shepard like the sheep you are. I have strayed from the path long ago and I have discovered great things about my self and I believe that I am starting to become who I want to be without god. And it will be without god until the day I die.

Happy Fucking Easter.

Oh and 27 days.